The places we've been determine who we are, and shape us into something that we might not have expected.
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Not many big things have changed in my life, in the span of a life-time.
I am no longer working as an intern with Weddings. The time was fun while it lasted, and I have no regrets and I learned a lot and had a lot of fun partnering with a good woman. But it was time to move on to somewhere else in my life.

I received my license, and my first car (1992 Convertible BMW - Daisy is her name. hehe). This required gas money, which required a steady income working somewhere. So I applied for World Market and got the job a week after applying for it. I have been working there since September and I am enjoying every minute of it. It doesn't pay a lot of money, but I have enough for what I need... and also what I want, so it's quite perfect for this season.

I met the man of my dreams, and the love of my life. and at times I feel like my feelings for him are too deep so soon, but then I realize that I can not control these feelings, and I am perfectly fine with how I feel... and feeling it in return is such a big blessing. So much has happened in our relationship thus far that has really showed me this is where God want us to be, and we can not follow out of that for any reason worth listening to.

My heart keeps dipping back into the question of weather or not to go to school for Midwifery. This would be amazing, a true accomplishment, and an amazing blessing to work in a field of delivering God's children... Being the first person to touch a child who has just been in the arms of the father - it's mind blowing to me, and I have no reasons not to follow through, only that I need to make sure that it is Gods will for my life. Thankfully I am only a junior in High School, and I have a long time before I need to figure something out, and actually, I don't need to figure it out... ever, because it's all in the Lords hands... and that's where it is most protected and cared for.

I am 95% sure that I am going to attend YWAM when I graduate from High School. Where will I go? I am asking myself the same thing. But my heart is really tugging there and I feel that it will be an amazing experience, and I have absolutely nothing to loose, but only to gain an amazing life changing time with the Lord and him only, for 6 months. It's very exciting to me.

I cannot even begin to describe how wonderful, but challenging, and completely strengthening this time of my life has been. I am learning a lot about myself, the people in this world, the work world, my family, situations that I have never been able to deal with the Lord is teaching me how to master them. haha. It really is an exciting time in my life, and I feel like I am really walking in what the Lord has for me.

As for photography haha:
I have been so busy lately, that I have not been focusing on my beautiful camera as much as I would like. Going to school at home, at a private school, and at a community college... while working, going to youthgroup & youthgroup worship practice, spending time with my family and friends... and most importantly having time with Jesus... Photography is at the bottom of the list right now, and before that would have broken my heart. But I am in a season of discovering new things apart from my camera world.
I am still madly in love with taking pictures. and every time I pick up my camera now, it's like a tasty chocolate that I've been craving. Because I don't spend that much time shooting right now, when I do it's pure joy and complete relaxation. Mostly I've been shooting at my family gatherings, my school, and just the beautiful trees and right now I am completely satisfied with that.
I do long to learn more about my beauty of a camera though, and in time I will.

Well, for those of you who have gotten to the Very Bottom of Everything (Bright Eyes song for those of you who enjoy his amazing music, haha), thank you very much for reading. and I hope that you got something useful out of this hecka long Journal Entry.